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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 06:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When she asked me how she looked .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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I never cut or harmed myself..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

What I have noticed is nearly every girl I try to connect with whom reject me are in their early 20s why is that the case?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But, we were locked up after school.

Why is social media so anti-fee speech, and have they become total BS?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why do I sweat between my legs all the time, top off my legs, all way down?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He resisted the act ,that day.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im still living with it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

So whats the point in blame.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was very sick at this time too.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I said to her

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

It was going to be , some day.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I write beautiful poetry .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We were not on the streets..

But it wasn’t much.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She found it foreign!.

I have no regrets .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

What did i know ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She married twice! .

She wouldn,t have been !

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And i lived it daily.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Who then, do I blame.?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My life is so biszare .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Would this be the day?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Ive learnt so much.

So, i spoilt her more .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Especially a lifetime of it.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was seconnd youngest,

As i do to all so called friends.?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was scared of men, in general

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She was in good health!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We all went to grammer schools

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I will be 64.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Put me off passion for life!!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My family never makes their pension either.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She loved him until the end.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Why did i forgive my father ?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

This is soul school!.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was 9 years of age.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He knew the spot.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

One cannot live in the past .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

All the time i was locked up.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I waited trembling.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I don,t even have a pension.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!